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| well. I don't rellay know why I'm updating, cuz I'd rather be sleeping (ZZZZZZZ) but I am so here ya go: Seussical is this week(end) Thursday to Sunday!! -- be there or be...um...square? Pit's going okay - I missed a lot of rehearsals for swimming, but I'm finally starting to get it. I really wish there weren't so many violas though. It's so hard to play with a good tone when Mr. Halquist is telling your section to shut up cuz you're too loud. You've gotta know he's been conducting for a long time, cuz he has this entire repitoire (sp?) of sarcastic insults for musical mistakes. It's pretty funny, really. NO MORE SWIMMING!!! Seriously, I am so happy about that. I know I'm not really exercising anymore, and that's not good, but I really needed a break. It's mentally taxing to have to go to practice every day and harden your resolve to try as hard as you can and give it all you've got...it was exhausting. So last week was really weird. I has CRAZY insane amounts of energy even though I was only getting 4 hours of sleep a night (I couldn't fall asleep! at like one in the morning I could have gone and run a mile, it was weird) and not eating a lot either (after half a sandwich and half an apple at lunch, I felt like I'd just had Thanksgiving dinner. also very weird). And I liked being that way -- it was like I didn't need the human necessities or whatever to be happy. All I needed was myself and I could look at life like it had something new around the corner to experience every day and that was enough. It was like...my soul was light. I can't explain it any other way. And this week, idk. It's like it's all zapped out of me...like I don't wake up smiling, I have to put a smile on my face and muster up some spare energy from somewhere after 7 whole hours of sleep. I'm not exactly sure what changed, but these extremes are killin me man. Quote of the day (that I wish didn't apply to today):
Forgiveness is me giving up my right to hurt you for hurting me... | | |
| | Wow, who's the bum who hasn't updated in MONTHS? totally me, lol. Well, here's a survey I stole from Hali's site cuz I needed something to post and thought this'd be fun: 1. In two words, explain what ended your last relationship?
ditto about how to start the survey...um, good, fun, and I ended it the same way I end all relationships - scared
2. When was the last time you shaved your legs?
um, this morning? I haven't made sectionals yet :[ and prolly never will.
3. What were you doing this morning at 8am?
test in AP Economics -- everyone's all "how hard could ECONOMICS be?" but I guess I don't have a brain for econ -- I prolly failed
4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
Listening to "Oceano" by Josh Groban and trying to sing the super hard Italian words, lol
5. Are you any good at math?
sure
6. Your prom night?
no proms yet 7. Do you have any famous ancestors?
not that I know of -- my great-grandpa was a baker...
8. Have you ever taken out a loan to pay for school?
nope...and never will. I don't want to owe anyone anything
9. Do you know the words to the song on your myspace profile?
be kinda lame if I didn't
10. Last thing received in the mail?
AGH COLLEGE MAIL!!! Keuka refuses to leave me alone!
11. How many different beverages have you drank today?
water, milk, Capri Sun
12. Do you ever leave messages on people's answering machines?
yeah, but I always end up leaving really long and confusing ones, so make sure you have something to write me number down on the first time you listen to them
13. Who did you lose your CONCERT virginity to?
still a virgin, lol
14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
Yes.
15. What's the most painful dental procedure you've had?
something having to do with getting braces tightened probably, but that's not really painful, persay
16. What is out your back door?
the part of our driveway that we park the cars on, the clothes line, biiiiiig huge field,
17. Any plans for tonight?
zzzzzzzzzzzz...I never have plans on a Thursday night, except Pit or a swim meet
18. Do you like the ocean?
I love any kind of water!!! VA Beach with Orch and Band was AMAZING!!! I wish I could go back (and go swimming in 45 degree water in a bikini in April =] )
19. Have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different kinds of popcorn for Christmas?
there's usually one around the house @ Christmastime, but I've never gotten one for a present -- it'd take me like a YEAR to eat the whole thing alone
20. Have you ever been to a planetarium?
for school sometime prolly...I like watching the stars
22. Something you are excited about?
life -- I can't wait to find out who I'm going to be and all the awesome stuff I'll be doing (especially after I'm 16 in 2 weeks from today!!!)
23. What is your favorite flavor of JELLO?
jello? I don't usually eat it. but on Easter my aunt's mother-in-law makes this awesome raspberry jello, yuuum
24. Are any of your great-grandparents still alive?
no :(
25. Describe your keychain:
pooh bear keychain that I got @ Disney when I was 8, the Eiffel Tower one I got for being amazing @ French in 8th grade and a pen (only one key, though -- for the house haha)
26. Where do you keep your change?
in a 100 Dalmations bank on my dresser
27. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people?
we have presentations almost every day in APUS, I actually kind of like speaking in front of a group. I used to get soooooo incredibly scared, but not so much anymore.
28. What kind of winter coat do you have?
black pea coat for school/church and a HUGE puffy purplish blue one for playing in the SNOW :)
29. What was the weather like on your graduation?
I'm still a junior
30. Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed?
closed so the light can't get in
Oh, we're starting @ 1 again?
1.) Where is your dad right now?
in the basement
2.) Do you own an iPod?
no
3.) Who on your Myspace "Top 8" do you talk to the most?
Hali and ABBY
4.) What time is your alarm clock set for?
5:31 -- that gives me one snooze before I have to shower (unless it's a swimming morning, then it's for like 5)
5.) What color is your room?
purple and yellow -- my mom made to quilt and I helped stencil
6.) Flip flops or sneakers?
Sneakers -- I wear orthodics cuz I walk funny w/out them I guess
7.) Would you rather take the picture or be in the picture?
be in it! I'm not a great photographer
8.) What was the last movie you watched?
A Walk to Remember (twice) I <3 that movie...it's so sad but sweet. wish I could have a 'Landon'
9.) What did you do over the weekend?
did all my homework for the week cuz I never have time...volunteered at church twice for the kids liturgy and Sunday school
10.) Do any of your friends have children?
no 11.) Has anyone ever called you lazy?
I hope not...but prolly yeah
12.) Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep faster?
I have before, but it's not a habit by any means
13.) What CD is currently in your CD player?
Josh Groban, lol
14.) Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
Skim milk, never really drink chocolate milk
15.) Has anyone told you a secret this week?
hmm, yeah
16.) Have you ever given someone a hickey?
no
17.) Who was the last person to call you?
do I have to answer that?
18.) Do you think people talk about you behind your back?
yeah, I'm sure they do...I try not to think about it
19.) Did you watch cartoons as a child?
not really. prolly arthur and kid songs and thomas and theodore the tugboat when I stayed home sick
20.) How many siblings do you have?
3 brothers
21.) Are you shy around the opposite sex?
sometimes...not as much as I used to be though
29.) What is the weather like?
it dark out - how'm I sposed to know?
30.) Would you ever date someone covered in tattoos?
tatoos are creepy...it's like my phobia of multiple piercings
31.) Is sex before marriage wrong?
yes, and really risky
32.) When was the last time you slept on the floor?
at katies house over the summer -- but there was a mattress, so that prolly doesn't count. I usually sleep on the floor if it gets to be midnight or something and I can't fall asleep in my bed or my foof chair (I LOVE that thing!)
33.) How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
about 7 or 8, but I can run on like 5 as long as I don't do it every night
34.) Are you in love or lust?
idk what being in love is...but I love being single right now. I have dreams, but I'm willing to wait...
35) Are your days full and fast-paced?
no rest for the wicked =P
36.) Do you pay attention to calories on the back of packages?
most of the time, yeah. I'm going to the doc's again tomorrow, but this time for a physical...I hope I've lost some since last time :(
44.) Do you enjoy giving hugs?
hugs are AMAZING!!! but I'm usually too shy or reserved or whateveer you want to call it to give them, ot have ppl to want to give them to me
45) What song did you last sing out loud?
Oceano
46) What is your favorite TV show?
All My Children the soap opera haha
47) Which celebrity dead or alive would you want to have lunch with?
idk...I don't like celebrities much...
48) Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
today before the 500
49) Ever been to camp?
horse camp! when I has like 10. it was a day camp except the last 2 days had an overnight, and I cried all night
50) Favorite Lyrics?
depends on what's going on in my life...I love relating to music. |
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| Time for a new entry!
Well, things are good. Better than last week, anyhow. Went to this beading class thing on Monday @ Joanns and learned how to make these gorgeous bracelets, hooray. I've also been studying vocab for PSATs and doing APUS stuff. (yes, in the summer go ahead and call me a nerd, it's nothing new, lol) Katie lent me the 3rd Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants book so I'm reading that. ^-^ I'm so addicted to them.
I feel like I'm coming down with something - I had a fever and a cough last night, but it's better this morning, so idk. It's the same kind of thing I got last summer, so I wouldn't be surprised.
Swimming starts on Monday, and I'm nervous, not gonna lie. I don't swim club, so making it might be tough this year. I'm trying really hard to lose that weight too so I don't have to drag it around in the pool - I struggle enough with swimming (or anything physical for that matter) I think that's why going to the doc upset me so much last week - I don't want to have problems with my knees or hip during the season, and the doc didn't seem to understand the importance of that. But I know that I'm doing something to help myself, which is a rather empowering feeling.
I just like being home...I know we're going back to the lake on Friday, but I'll take this while it lasts. Just being able to answer emails and talk to people and relax in my own house is comforting.
Everyone who hasn't should go to my myspace: http://www.myspace.com/erieplacable19 and check out the amazingness. I can't find the memory card for our camera, so there might not be pictures up til later. | | |
| I've been back for a couple days since the weekend w/ Hali. lol see her site for amazingly funny quotes - and fyi, "anonymous" is definately not me. ;)
Yesterday, I:
-Got up at 7:30 to go to work and got a call 10 mintues b4 I was sposed to be there saying that they didn't have the funds to pay me this week. I feel bad, I really do...but this job just hasn't been for me and I'm kind of relieved. idk what's going on for the rest of the summer now.
-Did a bunch of laundry (washed, hung out, and folded 2 loads)
-Watched Lion King while scrapbooking. That movie is AMAZING, I love it. lol
-Volunteered at the library from 6-8
-Came home and (after realizing that all my favorite movies: Aladdin, Little Mermaid, and Cinderella were missing!) watched Homeward Bound with my dad. while scrapbooking. (I might add that my scrapbook is now full and bolted (literally) together courtesy of my dad, hooray!)
Today, I:
-Had my health review for swimming
-Went to the pediatrician for this thing w/ my knees (I really don't like going to the doc. Seriously. She basically said that I needed to stop wearing flip flops so much, and barely listened to what I had to say. She seemed so unconcerned, even if she didn't want to come off that way. And there's this other thing that I hate: the let's-put-you-on-the-scale-before-you-go-into-the-room game and find out how fat you are. Now, I know you guys are going to be like "you of all people are not fat" and all that. But the fact is, I've gained a good 15 pounds since January. January! And it's showing. I hate myself for it, and all she could say was, "You're at a normal weight" AGH. I was ready to cry right there bc I was so angry that she didn't care.)
-Gave 2 viola lessons (only 1 left!)
-Went out to dinner at Chilangos (mmm Mexican. but which made me feel extra horrible about myself cuz of the whole weight thing)
-went to Wal Mart for school suppiles and tried on some bikinis (not a good day for that. seriously - I came out of WM with all these binders and stuff but not a suit, and guess why? Probably cuz I sit around all the time studying and not being active enough to prevent such a huge jump in weight. What a waste, I'm such a geek)
-Answered some emails
-Finished making the cookies my mom started before she got on the phone w/ one of my aunts. (again, not a good day for that)
-Realized that I am totally vain for complaining about any of this, go me. agh. I try so hard to be good (and as they say, "kindness begins at home") but I can never be like that for more than a day at a time. Then I just go back to being horrible mean old me.
It's back to the lake tomorrow, and then up to the Adirondacks on Friday to pick up Joe and Dan from this AMAZING Boy Scout camp they were at all week. It's so great up there, I wish I were a boy for a week out of the year. haha, and that's saying something.
This has been a really long post, sorry ppl. I do have one thing to look forward to though - my doc did say that she'd put my name in for a job next summer at their office helping the nurses in the back! I'm soooooo excited, even though it's not til next summer. (Yes, that was me trying to find the silver lining to that horrible doctors visit today)
Luv yas. --Mary | | |
| so yeah, we're leaving for the lake tomorrow for 2 weeks. I'd say 2 straight weeks, but I have to work Mon Jul 31 and Tues Aug 1, so we'll be back those 2 days. huzzah. e-mail me erieplacable19@yahoo.com or something, so I can feel like I have some friends. w/e here I go, off into total isolation where the only phone calls are made on nights and weekends, and only when your older bro isn't calling his gf. sorry I'm in such a horrible mood. somebody just slap me. agh.
luv ya, really I do. Mrrry | | |
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